I think I just might make quote posts a weekend thing. Cuz they’re easy and I love good quotes.
June 16, 2013
June 7, 2013
Over and over, when I subconsciously put up those subconscious barriers of judgement in my mind, the universe reminds me that’s not true.
I used to think I was invisible. A quiet nerd who people didn’t notice. Because the people who get noticed are usually the loud ones. And I don’t think I’m that loud. I figured I could mind my own business and get lost in my brain and think my own thoughts and talk to my own friends and that no one would take any notice of me. I wasn’t upset about that or anything, I was actually fine with being in my own world. I just didn’t expect anyone to notice me.
But the world doesn’t really work like that. People notice if you’re looking sad. People see that you know how to do certain problems. And people see that you’re generous, when you lend them a hair tie. Or that you’re empathetic, when you agree with them and say you think the teacher’s being unfair. Really, looking back on the year as we’re now in June, it’s funny the kind of good acquaintances you make (but I’ll save that for another post).
It’s been showing up multiple times for me, the fact that I’m not as invisible as I thought I was. Someone asks me if I got my hair cut, and say they like it. Three girls see me biking home and say “Hi Ana!” Someone asks me about the Coldplay shirt I’m wearing, if I’ve seen them in concert before (I haven’t, sadly). Someone asks whether I’ve started studying for a bio test or not. Someone laughs at the fact that I can raise my eyebrows and do the wave with them.
And these girls are the type of people I consider “the party crowd”. The kind of people that nerds tend to be thought completely opposite of.
But nearing the end of the year now, I realize that generally, people are the same. The “populars” aren’t some unheard-of alien species. They want to do well on their finals. They’re friendly. They’ve got their friend groups they stick with where they can be crazy and be themselves, but are reserved when talking to people they are merely acquaintances with. They don’t want a teacher getting mad at them if they forgot their textbook. They might just be a little less nerdy and a little more athletic. Someone might perceive them as a bit cocky, but we give the party crowd only as music attention as they pay us, which isn’t very much. They’ve got their different interests but basically we’re all the same.
It’s nice to know that, and good to remember. Maybe next time someone says they’re too full of themselves, I’ll think a bit more before believing it completely.
June 5, 2013
Hey guys, this is just a quick update.
I’m gonna be in a collaborative blog! My friends and I are gonna be writing some stories and stuff together, so why don’t you check it out?
It’s called Stories by the Lost Souls! If you want to help in the brainstorming process or just watch what we’re up to, go ahead!